i got to see my parents’ face through the webcam for the first time in nearly 6 months— and i felt shy showing them my face, i don’t know why. the connection was breaking up, so i only got to see them for seconds..

i had a dream that i had an argument with my parents, and while trying to be defiant and telling them i would be ok on my own.. a man surprised me from behind and attempted to kidnap me. i was only a couple of feet away from my dad, but he was looking down at his phone ironically searching a way for me to get home on my own safely, and it was night. i shouted ‘help’ over and over, but my voice barely got out in a whisper..

school has been consuming me recently, i can’t think. as i take a breath, i realize how much i miss my family, and seattle.

on the other hand.. i believe that this right now, is a refining process, trusting God to show His strength through all of my weakness. that is the most comforting and extravagant assurance to me. my season is to go through this, to fight through the fire. and, i don’t see myself in seattle just yet.. i still don’t feel peace thinking about ‘settling down’. mm so i just keep going and continue doing life / sharing love with others. until then..